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as i write this blog entry, i just got up from bed coz i cant sleep. i am here now at kharmell’s room. i chose to sleep here coz she’s not feeling well and i want to be by her side tonight.

while i was trying hard to sleep, i was just thinking and thinking… the first day of the year had ended. and i must say that my year did start right. (despite the hangover from last night’s crazy party!)

though i did not prepare much for media noche unlike what we usually do in the philippines where we have 12 round fruits, grapes hanging by the door beam, coins in our pockets, and must be in red or polka-dots or striped outfit…. deep inside, im so ready for 2009. and i was embracing it with open arms. and im happy about it. 

in the coming of 2009, i am not much anxious about the things to come. that’s new for me, i must say. coz for those who know me well, i am such a worrywart… and it is a big change that i am not worrying.

i am hopeful.

though one of my friends commented that people who were born on february are unlucky people. adding that, “even if we try to be happy and comfortable, there is fate. we cant get all we wish for even if we do our best for that.” i totally disagree with what he said. no offense to him coz he was also born on february. i also know some people who were born on this month but i cant judge nor conclude that they are miserable with their lives. i was born on feb, but i dont consider myself unlucky. in fact, i feel blessed.

although i’ve gone through a lot of disappointments. i’ve been through hell on a few ocassions in my entire lifetime. i met people whom i wish i’ve never known. i fell and stumbled a lot of times. i dont have perfect health. i’ve had a lot of complaints and some regrets. i’ve had my heart broken several times in the past. but i dont believe that im unlucky. all of us go through these things. that’s part of life. that’s part of the moulding and sharpening of our character. these awful things make us better people - no matter which month you were born. no matter what your astrological sign is: life would still be harsh. but there is still hope. there will always be a brighter future.

oh sheeesh…. im not a very happy-like-sunshine, always-beaming-with-a-smile kind of person. but believe me, even a person like me who is most of the time sarcastic, sometimes pessimistic and cynical and even mistaken as indifferent and cold is OPTIMISTIC at this moment.

i dont know where i got the positive vibes. maybe it came from my change of heart.

before the year ended, i talked to a friend who have hurted me and my bestfriend. i told her how she had caused us pain. and that i forgive her. and she said sorry too and admitted that she was clueless about the whole thing.

then as i was in the shower, i told myself that i would no longer keep hatred against the people whom i hate recently. that if i see them around, i would no longer ignore them. but i chose to remain civil. by this way, it will prevent the pain to come back again.

then in terms of lovelife, i will no longer be impatient. i will be cool at things. and be open to new acquaintances and friends. by this manner, i wont be causing any pressure to someone. and wont be imposing things either.

in terms of career…. hmmmmm…. i am decided to go home for good. honestly, i havent searched for a new job. i am plainly thinking of resting for some time. spending time with my parents. catching up with them. and also catch up with my good ol’ friends in manila. i admit that at some point in my life, i was worried of giving up my rather stable job since there is an arising worldwide economy crisis. but i have priorities too. i wont jeopardize my health and give up my quality time with my family. family first. that’s my life’s rule. my parents arent getting any younger. i need to be with them. they need me even they dont tell me so.

so there.

i just hope that this positive attitude and thinking wont be just a spur of the moment because its new year. and i believe not too.

so to all my friends, family and loved ones…. i sincerely hope and pray that this year will bring good things to us. God bless us all!

WELCOME 2009!

just a few more hours from now, we’ll say farewell to year 2008 and will welcome the year 2009…

here i am… all alone coz my bestfriend, camille just left for dubai-jakarta layover… meanwhile, two of my friends went home to philippines for vacation, and 3 of them will go to london for the new year…. im just waiting for kharmel to come back from dhaka…. and we’re planning to have a new year dinner tomorrow night. (even though im standby… i hope that they wont call me for a flight *fingers crossed*)

anyhow, i want to make this a-summary-of-my-year-2008 blog…..

this was an interesting year for me…. and the highlight events happened toward the end of the year……

my memory is so poor that i cant recall all the significant things unless i really track them down per detail….. so im gonna do this on a monthly account… and im gonna dig up my previous rosters to help me recall….

JANUARY

• the year started quite right in terms of my flight sched… i spent the new year in dhaka, bangladesh. it was quite sad at first coz i was the only filipina in the flight. but when i came back from dhaka, they gave me another dhaka which was extended.. then i was given frankfurt layover a couple of days after i arrived from dhaka…. so technically, my finances were okay during this month because of a lot of nightstops….
• my arki friends took the board exam and passed it… im so proud and happy for my new ARCHITECT friends….. may pipirma na sa dream house ko…. hahahahaha!

FEBRUARY

• it was my first time to wear braces… i guess i did it too late…. i wish ive done it when i was younger….
• i requested for a dubai-jakarta nightstop for my birthday… and it was approved!
• my mom went over to jakarta to spend my bday with me. it was a lot of FUN!!!! im happy coz i was able to bring my mom to indonesia. it was her first time to go there.
• i was called for a long london layover… and i tell you, it only happens to me once in a blue moon. they dont usually call me for a nightstop….. it’s a miracle!!! hahaha
• it was also a sad month for me coz my good friend cole got sick and she needed to go home to philippines for an operation. i felt bad coz that was the time we were getting so close and then we had to go on separate ways….

MARCH

• i went to dubai-jakarta lay-over again… this time with peach…. it was FUN! the crew was great!
• i moved my vacation to APRIL-MAY instead of JUNE - JULY because of the stupid management… i got really upset because of this…. my mom already bought our tickets for US and i had to pay a fine for rebooking. it was crappy! then i had to pack immediately and do a panic pasalubong shopping! i hate it!

APRIL

• my vacation is officially moved to the mid of this month. i had a frankfurt nightstop before i left so i did some pasalubong shopping there….
• then i left for philippines on 16th of this month with melody
• in the airport in sanaa, we were treated so badly! now i know why the passengers are upset when they board the aircraft… no wonder! because they were treated harshly during check-in…. tsk tsk… too bad….
• we were able to save one day instead of spending it kuala lumpur for transit…. we were able to make it to the first flight to Manila from Malaysia because of the unpredicatability of our airline’s schedule… at least we were able to benefit from them!
• my mom and i went to USA. too bad my dad did not join us….
• it was my first time to go to Las Vegas. i was happy coz i was with my mom, my tita and Lani…. we were able to do some all-girls bonding….
• i saw a good ol’ friend who migrated to US…. it has been a long time since we didnt see each other. then i had some realizations. pretty good ones.
• we were able to visit my family in San Diego. i really had a good time there with my cousins and grandparents. i was able to take care of my sick lola…. and for the first time, we were complete during a family gathering…

MAY

• we then moved to Illinois and visited our relatives from my dad’s side.
• i also enjoyed my time there. babysitting my nieces and my baby nephew: the newest addition to the family
• we had a really nice family time and bonding. it was so precious.
• i came back to Manila and spend time with my friends and other relatives.
• i visited the newly born babies….. julia and bree. they are so beautiful! im so proud of their mommies, Angeli and Mabette.
• then i came back to Yemen. good grief! it was a difficult time for me and elo. it was really hard to leave our loved ones behind. even it was our 3rd time already. we cant be used to moving away. we pledged that this will be our last year in yemen.

JUNE

• it was time for us to renew our contract.
• FINALLY, this is our last contract year……… what a relief! really…. im thankful that i went this far and was able to endure this long……
• as usual, there are some disappointments again because of our management. they cut a big amount of money from our salary due to the extension of our vacation. but a fight is useless. they will never listen to us.
• we had our training to be First Class Attendants. it created a tension within our batch coz we didnt really want that training in the beginning. but i guess we didnt have a choice.

JULY

• we had our refresher ground school. it’s the mark of our last year here. at least for me. coz i was sure enough that i will leave soon.
• i had a taste of disappointment again when my paris nightstop with jean was cancelled. my dream of going to Paris Disneyland shattered.

AUGUST

• it was the month of camille’s birthday
• we went to dhaka together when she swapped her flight. we enjoyed our long nightstop…. it was great!
• i had dubai-jakarta this month… and i spent it with my cousin when i was in dubai. we really had some nice time bonding
• we filed for our vacation for January and it was approved already… MANILA, here i come!

SEPTEMBER

• it was the month of my brother’s 6th death anniversary for six years, my family is still fighting for justice. the case hearing is still continuous. it’s so frustrating! i hate our judicial system!
• my nighstops are getting less…. i only had 24 hour paris and london.

OCTOBER

• i went to Kuala Lumpur and Singapore. it was very memorable!!!! i was able to see the arkipeeps in singapore. it was a nice mini-reunion.
• again, i only had one nighstop this month: Paris. hmmmm, they are getting used to giving me only one nighstop per month…. this doesnt sound good.

NOVEMBER

• i got sick this month. it feels terrible to get sick when youre all alone in a distant land….
• again, i only had one nighstop this month. short london. are they enjoying the habit of giving me less than what i deserve???

DECEMBER

• here goes the very controversial and the most disappointing month for me
• i was betrayed by my own countrymen and whom i considered before as friends. 
• i gave up my trust for the management and the people here.
• i realised that there’s no chance for me even to just reconsider to renew my contract. this place isnt for me. the world here is too chaotic and too corrupted for me to fit in.
• my heart got broken again this month.
• the only good thing that happened to me this month was spending christmas in ROME and realizing that God is a just God.
• and of course, one more thing….. in a few days, i’ll be going home to PHILIPPINES!

im still in rome… my flight was supposed to leave this morning but it was cancelled and move for tomorrow. yippppie!

now im here at the crew lounge and keeping myself updated on the happenings in my friends and loved one lives……

i’ve been looking at pics, reading blogs about their christmas….. somehow i feel the spirit of the traditional filipino christmas that i’ve been missing for the last 2 years….

to my friends and family, im so happy and i feel content that all of you had a great christmas. that’s enough for me to be happy myself even im here in a faraway land………….

in case anybody’s wondering how my christmas went, here goes………….

on the 24th, me and the 2 indonesians from my batch and a new turkish girl, went for a day tour in the city. we went first to the colloseo coz that’s the closest landmark from our train stop. me and turkish girl lost the 2 indonesian girls. so we just continued walking towards the direction of the fontana. then along the way, we saw our 2 male crew and the first officer. so we went together to the fontana. it’s so funny that these guys were more camera addicts than us…. they take photos of themselves at every block…….

then we stopped by to watch an airbrush artist along the street……. and that’s where we got reunited with the 2 indonesian girls that we lost earlier….. so we were all together at the fontana. then we decided to separate ways again when we (the 3 asian girls) decided to eat at a chinese restaurant for lunch. of course the arabs didnt want our preference, so they went their way.

but too bad, the chinese resto was still closed not until 5:30pm. so we decided to search for another one….. we were walking blocks and blocks away from the fontana but we got lost and still ended up at the fountain. its weird that rome city is too small for our crew. again, we found the boys again. but still, we didnt go together.

after ending up having early dinner at mc donalds, the girls did me a favor of accompanying me to the vatican……

it was a great feeling to be there on christmas eve. they were making preparations for the pope’s christmas mass. we did some  picture-taking there and i said my christmas prayer then we left because it was so cold and we fear that we might miss the last train.

and so we called it a night.

on christmas day, even though i only had a few hours of shuteye, i still managed to wake up at 8am to prepare for my christmas breakfast. i wore the outfit i prepared for christmas. im like a kid. i have to have a christmas dress… hahaha! anyway, it was so depressing coz i went for breakfast alone. my roommate just arrived when i was about to leave for breakfast. she said she doesnt like the breakfast food and she will just sleep. and so there, i ate breakfast alone but eventually joined by one indonesian crew.

then my day went by so slow………. i was just logged on to the internet the whole day…. chatting and exchanging christmas greetings to friends and relatives who goes online.

then towards the end of the day, i felt lonely. i saw all of my crew but nobody ever realised that it was christmas day. i kinda expected that coz they are muslims. at least the housekeepers managed to exchange greetings with me… i said merry christmas and they say buon natale (merry christmas in italian).

oh well…. i should have gotten used to it by now. it’s my 3rd christmas here anyway….. but NO!!! i cant get used to it….. christmas will always be christmas!!! it’s my favorite time of the year……

in fairness to my indonesian batchmates, they accompanied me to have christmas dinner at our favorite chinese restaurant. and that completed my christmas day.

it was not so bad after all.

happy holidays everyone!

this morning, when i was still in paris, my pinay colleague and i were walking along the hotel lobby going for breakfast…….

and coming from the opposite direction, we saw the JAL (Japan Airlines) crew coming our way….

and maricar and i cant help but admire them………. and gaze at them until they walk pass us….

this morning, when i was still in paris, my pinay colleague and i were walking along the hotel lobby going for breakfast…….

and coming from the opposite direction, we saw the JAL (Japan Airlines) crew coming our way….

and maricar and i cant help but admire them………. and gaze at them until they walk pass us….

it was like a dream……

because we just finished watching Attention Please…. a series about JAL flight attendants and their lives as cabin crew…..

although it was a fiction series, but when we saw them this morning face to face, it seemed that we were seeing movie stars………… it’s as if we were part of the filming of yet another episode of that series……

everything was the same as in the series…. the smile, the uniform, the silver name plate, the ID pinned on the pocket of their coats, the luggage, and the scarf…. especially the scarf tied across their necks…….. haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay………. it was either pink or blue……….. tied as a pretty bow. and everything looked perfect.

it also crossed my mind for a second to ask them if they know “misaki”…. (the main actress in the series)

my spirit is high today… i sooooo love being a cabin crew!

—————JANUARY BABY——————–
Pretty/handsome. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Sensitive. Down-to-Earth. Stubborn.
Repost this in 5 mins and you will meet someone new in 8 days that will perfectly balance your personality.
 

———-FEBRUARY BABY ——————–
Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. sexiest out of everyone. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends
but rarely shows it. Horny. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.
Repost this in 5 mins and you will talk to someone new and realize that you are a perfect match.

—————–MARCH BABY ——————–
Attractive personality. sexy. Affectionate Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Great kisser. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Observant and assesses others.
If you repost this in the next 5 mins, you will meet your new love in 8 days.

——————APRIL BABY ——————-
Suave and compromising. Funny and humorous. Stubborn. Very talkative. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal. Does work well with others. Very confident. Sensitive. Positive Attitude. Thinking generous. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Able to cheer everyone up and/or make them laugh. Able to motivate oneself and others. Understanding. Fun to be around. Outgoing. Hyper. Bubbly personality. Secretive. Boy/girl crazy. Loves sports, music, leisure and travelling. Systematic. hot but has brains.
If you repost this in 5 mins, a cutie that’s caught your eye will introduce themselves and you will realize that you are very much alike in the next 2 days.

—————–MAY BABY —————–
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Shy towards opposite sex. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves travelling. Dislike
being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited.
If you repost this in the next 5 minutes, you will become close to someone you do not speak to much in the next 4 days.

————JUNE BABY ————-
You’ve got the best personality and are anabsolute pleasure to be around. You love to make new friends and be outgoing. You are a great flirt and more than likely have an a very attractive partner. a wicked hottie. It is also more than likely that you have a massive record collection. You have a great choice in films, and may one day
become a famous actor/actress yourself - heck, you’ve got the looks for it!!!
IN the next 6 days you will meet someone that may possibly become one of your closest friends, if you repost this in 5 minutes.

—————-JULY BABY ————–
Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people’s feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Spazzy at times. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of
sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.
Repost this in the next 5 mins and your reputation will boost someway in the next 12 days

————AUGUST BABY —————
outgoing personality. takes risks. feeds on attention. no self control. kind hearted. self
confident. loud and boisterous. VERY revengeful. easy to get along with and talk to. has an “every thing’s peachy” attitude. likes talking and singing. loves music. daydreamer. easily distracted. Hates not being trusted. BIG imagination. loves to be
loved. hates studying. in need of “that someone”. longs for freedom. rebellious when withheld or restricted. lives by “no pain no gain” caring. always a suspect. playful. mysterious. “charming” or “beautiful” to everyone. stubborn. curious. independent. strong willed. a fighter.
repost in 5 mins and you will meet the love of your life sometime next month.

————SEPTEMBER BABY —————
Active and dynamic. Decisive and haste but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people’s problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Usually you have many friends. Enjoys to make love. Emotional.
Stubborn. Hasty. Good memory. Moving, motivates oneself and others. Loves to travel and explore. Sometimes sexy in a way that only their lover can understand.
if you do not repost this in the next 5 mins, someone very close to you will become mad at you in the next 8 days.

—————OCTOBER BABY ——————-
Loves to chat. Loves those who love them. Loves to takes things at the centre. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn’t pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Brave and fearless. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care to control emotions. Unpredictable.
Extremely smart, but definitely the hottest AND sexiest of them all.
repost this in 5 mins or you will not meet the love of your life for 10 years.

—————NOVEMBER BABY ——————–
Trustworthy and loyal. Very passionate and dangerous. Wild at times. Knows how to have fun. Sexy and mysterious. Everyone is drawn towards your inner and outer beauty and independent personality. Playful, but secretive. Very emotional and temperamental sometimes. Meets new people easily and very social in a group. Fearless and independent. Can hold their own. Stands out in a crowd. Essentially very smart. Usually, the greatest men are born in this month. If you ever begin a relationship with someone from this month, hold on to them because their one of a kind.
repost in 5 mins & you will excel in a major event coming up sometime this month.

—————DECEMBER BABY —————
This straight-up means urthe most good-looking person possible… better than all of these other months! Loyal and generous. Patriotic. Competitive in everything. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Easy to talk to, though hard to understand. Thinks far with vision,
yet complicated to know. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Has that someone always on his/her mind. Talkative. Daydreamer.
Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Abiding. Able to show character. one guy/girl kind of person. Loveable. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. loves music.

“life is like a game of chess…..”

not so long ago, a very dear friend of mine asked me this question…..

“if you were a chess piece, which one would you choose based on your personality and the role of that piece in the game….?”

it made me think deep…. but i found the answer immendiately…..

and then i asked her, “hmmmm, what do you think? what am i?… i know you know what im thinking…..”

and then, i said, “im the king!” without any hesitation……..

and the she agreed. “Yes, indeed you are the king.”

and i asked her, “do you know, why?”

and she said, “yes”. but she asked for my reason anyway.

and here’s my explanation:

“im like the king…. coz in my life, im the protected one. my family guarded me as much as they can. i lived a very comfortable life. i was pampered. my moves are limited and small. and there’s a lot of people i rely on.”

and she agreed again. and added, “yes, because youre a spoiled brat!“

and we laughed coz it’s true.

and i asked her… “so what are you?”

and she said she’s like the horse. very cunning. very strategic in moves. can withstand the game even if she’s the last one standing (of course the king should still be there). does the extra-ordinary. takes the big leap to make a difference.

and i agree with her. coz ive known her to be a fighter. and how i wish my answer was as remarkable as hers, but what can i do? the king came first in my head….. hahahaha!

and we tackled on what the other pieces do….. here’s what we thought……

the pawn is a normal person. very ordinary. though reliable. but still mediocre.

the rook, though travels a long way, but only goes on two directions, forward or backward, left or right. he’s a guardian.

the queen is a versatile person. it can do a lot of moves. goes a long way in the board. but also needs protection sometimes. although she can move-about the board, the area should be paved for it first or else it will be stationary at its position.

and the bishop, my friend said it is the sociable one. maybe because it moves diagonally. so it faces a lot of directions. meets a lot of people. something like that. also very versatile but in a limited way.

there…. i find this topic very interesting….. actually this was the first time someone asked me this question….. and our conversation went so well.

so what do you think, which chess piece are you?

yesterday, while i was attempting to prepare a decent meal for me and cams, my fingers were itching to type a blog about it…

anyway, since it’s holiday season now because the muslims are celebrating eid and due to our hectic flight sched which is everyday…. we had no chance to do grocery shopping and to fill up our fridge with supplies… so technically, i just used whatever is available…..

since i had ground beef, some garlic, i borrowed an onion from jean, then we still have soy sauce, vinegar, flour, sugar, salt and pepper… then i came with the idea of making burger patties……….

mind you, it’s my first time to do it……. so i had no idea if it’ll be succesful or not…… if we will starve that afternoon or have a sumptuous lunch……

here goes the thinking part….. while i was flipping this patty, believe it or not, out of the six or seven patties that i made, only 2 were successful…. successful meaning they are still round, well done and not burnt on both sides, the meat is still intact. (and of course, i left these two near-to-perfect patties for camille…. i feel shy to feed her with the ugly ones which do not look like patties at all)

therefore, i came to a conclusion that making home-made burger patties is like keeping a relationship……

here are some of my points:

1. mashing the ingredients with your hands, making your hands stinky and slimy and gooey isnt an easy task….. it’s like entering a relationship, you need to accept his/her ugly traits, immerse yourself in his/her world…..
2. moulding the individual patty into a round, flat, not to thick nor too thin, not to big nor too small a size….. it’s like putting effort into that relationship…. dont put too much of yourself, so you wont end up empty-handed…. dont be scanty either or he’ll look for more attention and love elsewhere…. like a patty, if you make it too small, and too round, then why not make a meatball instead…. hehehehe! if you make it too thin and flat, it will burn easily….. if you make it too thick, in the end, it will be medium rare in the middle… therefore, do it just right….. just enough.
3. when youre frying the patty, be careful….. watch over it intently. dont be like me, i was multi-tasking when i was cooking the first few patties…. after i lay the patty on the pan, i leave it and do something else like do the laundry while watching tv. then when i come back to the kitchen, one side is already burnt. so to compensate for the burnt side, i’ll flip the patty and cook the other side very fast…. so that i wont eat a hard and dark as coal patty……. dont cook the patty over high fire…. and never leave it for too long. again, like in any relationship, pay attention. listen attentively. watch over him/her. be his/her guardian. when you do that, your relationship will be well-done. not burnt, nor rare….
4. last but not the least, and i guess the most obvious and more important point: making the perfect patty is like keeping a lasting relationship. out of the 7 patties i made, only a couple were perfect. as you mature, you’ll meet a lot of people along the way….. you’ll have several relatioships…. some will be serious, some will be just for fun…… but out of these relationships, only a few or maybe only one would matter and would last.

cooking is rather fun! it did not only satisfy my hunger, but it also fed my thoughts………

bon apetit!

i was fretting since a few days ago (and more yesterday) coz my bestfriend and i didnt get what we requested for……

we requested for london flight on christmas……. our manager approved it, our director approved it…. and the one in-charge for the schedules was there when they both signed it……. so we were expecting that it will be approved.

besides, the manager told us before we left the office, “tell your filipina friends not to make any more requests for christmas to london because youre the ones who are going there”

and so we did tell them… at least to some of them. that time, so far, no one was on the way because most of the people requested for new year. and i guess we were the first ones to make that request…….

anyway, just recently, we found out that the new roster is already ready and we didnt get the london flight.

SOMEONE else got it. SOMEONE more “scheming” than us.

sad to say, that SOMEONE is someone whom we know well enough too.

SOMEONE who we can call FRIENDS.

oh well. at that time, i thought life is unfair!

sometimes, when you want to choose the right path, and do the right way, you dont succeed. but for those who use power, money, charms or whatever, they get what they want.

but now, my assumption in wrong. God proved me wrong, again.

He made me realise for the nth time that life is still fair. life is still good. life is indeed BEAUTIFUL.

i learned that God doesnt give us everything what we want. He gives us what we deserve. And mind you, He made clear that this thing that we deserve is no less than the BEST.

and im happy with that thought.

so now, im in the process of letting go of this london flight. and doing something to get an alternative.

let them have it. maybe they want it so bad.

maybe camille and i were meant to be in a more peaceful place, in a more serene environment where we will experience the real essence of Christmas…….

maybe in frankfurt. i will be going to frankfurt on christmas and camille will go to dhaka. we’re making arrangements so she can join me in frankfurt…….

who knows, maybe it will be a white christmas for both of us.

and just a note: last night, i was called for a flight to jeddah. i felt lethargic to fly coz there were not much vacancies in the more difficult flights like mumbai, moroni, cairo…. so i complained a bit when they gave me jeddah. it was just a short flight. around 3 hours total of flying hours. i wont be earning that much on that flight. oh well, what the heck! i just accepted it anyway.

here’s the twist. i accepted the flight, i finished preparing, i waited for the bus. and suddenly, the crew control called. the one who was sitting there was the man i hated the most in crew control. but you know what, he told camille that i will be with her to dubai. overnight stay in dubai.

camille and i were screaming in glee….. we never expected it! really. this is the least that i was expecting. but it happened.

now i have triple blessings: first, im no longer standby today coz i already have a flight. a nice one, i say. second, i will be with camille in dubai. we never been there together for the last 2 1/2 years. lastly, i will no longer be “lugi” with my nightstops this month. at least i had two nightstops before the month ended.

God makes small miracles in unexpected ways! - and unexpected people deliver them.

now im happy.